Saturday, 4 August 2007

overdue

The title says it all. I went to King's Park on the first day of school (read: almost two weeks ago), and its only now that I realise... I haven't blogged about it!

oops

So what triggered the memory? Fabian did, actually, Friday evening. He'd taken Wanlin and I out for dinner in Northbridge (Korean food. yum. definitely go again). We drove through King's Park on the way back, and he asked if I'd ever seen the view of the city from the park at night. I hadn't... because after almost 5 months here in Perth, I've barely been out exploring. And only gone up King's Park twice. I know, boring me. I've got another 5.5 years to slowly explore the whole of WA though. Maybe more. Anyway, he told me to look left as we passed through... and I couldn't keep my eyes off the view.

Pity I didn't have a camera with me then. So we'll just have to settle for daytime views instead...

So. Rewind two weeks. Joel drove Arthur, Hui, and I there. I won't say the weather was good, Perth's weather has been rather fickle lately ("to rain, or not to rain..."), but we did have some rain-free spells to run around. Well, I ran around taking photos... the three of them have been here long enough to avoid acting all touristy.

I guess most people who go to King's Park go to see the Western Australia War Memorial first, and the Eternal Flame. The flame is set in a pool, surrounded by a ring of flowers and another of steps, with the different battles carved into the stone. The Memorial itself is directly in front of that, and overlooking the Swan River.
While taking those photos, I also noticed a rainbow... Kai, this one's for you!I remember it poured after that, and the rainbow was nowhere to be seen when the rain stopped a second time. No matter... I busied myself with taking pictures of the Swan River and the areas south of the river.
Pretty, no? We decided to explore other parts after that. Really, the place is just huge... nowhere near the size of Stanley Park in Vancouver (which I love, by the way... I'd really love to go back there someday), but still hard to cover in a few hours. The next place we went to... well, I've forgotten the name, Arthur probably knows, since he suggested we visit it. And again, I went nuts with the photo-taking... Which, of course, prompted him to say, "You have six years to do this!!!"
Aren't the fountains just beautiful? And that tiny waterfall is pretty too...
I got back from my photo-taking spree to find the three of them right where I'd left them, sitting on a bench under a tree. Only now, Joel was torturing a flock of hungry birds...
Arthur suggested Synergy Parkland after that, so he drove there. I took more videos than photos there, it seems. Pity...

So that was my original plan for the day. FCP, lunch, a trip out, and then study at night. But I didn't do any studying in the end. Well, it was only the first day... Ben brought us (me, Dan, KY) to Northbridge that night for bubble tea (the boys) and ice cream (me). Then we had a long talk about study groups and people and random things in general over bubble tea and ice cream.

And after that? Did we go back to college? Nope... instead, we did one of the more insane things I've ever tried here. Perhaps the most insane. Drive out to Cottesloe beach. At 10pm. Then walk along the beach, with the wind threatening to blow me off my feet, raindrops falling and scattering transient jewels in our hair, and the waves crashing on the sand. I didn't know whether I would freeze or be blown away, but I must say, it was rather thrilling to feel the wind and the cold. (Kai. Don't give me that look. I know you think I'm nuts now.) It was too dark to take a proper picture... pity, that. It was so grand, so humbling, so beautiful. Thanks for inviting us out, Ben. We should go again, when you're free.

So that was my first day of the semester. No homework, and two trips out. It's too late to talk about tonight's formal dinner now, and I doubt anyone has uploaded photos. Probably still out clubbing. Me? I'm turning in. Study group tomorrow, and I intend to make the most of it.

Buenas noches

Friday, 3 August 2007

I cannot crack now, I must not. I owe us both an answer, though it might be an answer I fear knowing. I've also committed myself to helping them, and I'm absolutely willing, because they're willing to help themselves. And honestly, its only the second week of the semester. It's absolutely pathetic to crack now. If I can't handle the work now, how am I going to handle worse in the future?

I need to get a grip. I will not crack

Tuesday, 31 July 2007

新不了情

词:黄郁曲:鲍比达

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了深情难了
缘难了深情难了

Just because it fits my mood. And also because I adore it

escape artist

Frustrated. I can't study. Frustrated. Problems I don't know how to solve. Maybe I'm afraid of the solution. Maybe I'm just too tired. Maybe I'm sick of crying. But being sick of crying doesn't mean I don't. And I try to ignore it, to forget it, by burying myself in Guyton and in Moore and in learning everything I need to know about the cardiovascular system. It doesn't work, not even when I tell myself that I must learn it all, that I'm not going to kill someone in the future because I was too emotional to study in my first year. It doesn't work, because every time I get close to being able to focus, I find I'm beginning to cry again. I hate crying. I never let myself cry if I can help it. But with you, nothing stops the tears, no matter what I do. It doesn't work, because I can hear you in my head, telling me I'm running away. I don't like running away. You told me before, it's escapist, it solves nothing. And I know it's true.

Maybe I was running away yesterday. But who cares, it worked, it got me on track and I managed to finish preparing for today's lectures last night. And I went to bed feeling good about myself. I woke up late, too late to carry out my insane study plans for the morning, too late to even go down for breakfast. But I still feel good about myself. Temporary relief, I'll probably go back to being moody again at some point. But for now, I'm focused and I'm okay, as long as I don't let myself dwell on it.

Sometimes you just need to get away. Joel and Arthur, thank you for the lunch and pianos and laughter yesterday afternoon, I really appreciate it.

Wednesday, 4 July 2007

(a little more than) one week on..

1. Make earrings.
2. Multiply that by 3 2. pairs. Oh gosh I just thought of using Snitches in the design... Just used that particular idea. yay! hmm what's next?
3. Make necklace(s?) Finished 1, might do another. Blue/silver or red/black?
4. Finish the books I brought home ~slowly but surely~
5. Watch OotP. Dawn had better be free to go.
6. Start choreographing... but I still haven’t picked a song
7. Go out with us_six. only Annie ain't around (glares in her general direction)
8. KTV with tommy more people... is it still on?
doesn’t seem to be on anymore. *sigh*
9. blog more. Heh. I’ve got some long-overdue pictures…
10. Play piano!!!
11. Actually do everything I've listed above...

Oh yea, MGC sem 1 results have been posted. Did I do okay? yeah, I can't deny that. Am I satisfied? not quite, I should have done so much better. (O the angst-ridden whingings of a perfectionist...) Still, I didn't do as well as I expected, and no amount of "but it's ok what!"-type statements are going to dampen the disappointment of not meeting my own expectations.

But now, methinks it's time I quit whining and get to work on point 4.

Tuesday, 3 July 2007

not something I do often, but well, it's interesting...

Monday, 2 July 2007

张靓颖...

omg she has a crazy range. And that's what I'm going to work for.

*worships her*

新不了情


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