新不了情

词:黄郁曲:鲍比达

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮幕与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了深情难了
缘难了深情难了

Just because it fits my mood. And also because I adore it

escape artist

Frustrated. I can't study. Frustrated. Problems I don't know how to solve. Maybe I'm afraid of the solution. Maybe I'm just too tired. Maybe I'm sick of crying. But being sick of crying doesn't mean I don't. And I try to ignore it, to forget it, by burying myself in Guyton and in Moore and in learning everything I need to know about the cardiovascular system. It doesn't work, not even when I tell myself that I must learn it all, that I'm not going to kill someone in the future because I was too emotional to study in my first year. It doesn't work, because every time I get close to being able to focus, I find I'm beginning to cry again. I hate crying. I never let myself cry if I can help it. But with you, nothing stops the tears, no matter what I do. It doesn't work, because I can hear you in my head, telling me I'm running away. I don't like running away. You told me before, it's escapist, it solves nothing. And I know it's true.

Maybe I was running away yesterday. But who cares, it worked, it got me on track and I managed to finish preparing for today's lectures last night. And I went to bed feeling good about myself. I woke up late, too late to carry out my insane study plans for the morning, too late to even go down for breakfast. But I still feel good about myself. Temporary relief, I'll probably go back to being moody again at some point. But for now, I'm focused and I'm okay, as long as I don't let myself dwell on it.

Sometimes you just need to get away. Joel and Arthur, thank you for the lunch and pianos and laughter yesterday afternoon, I really appreciate it.

(a little more than) one week on..

1. Make earrings.
2. Multiply that by 3 2. pairs. Oh gosh I just thought of using Snitches in the design... Just used that particular idea. yay! hmm what's next?
3. Make necklace(s?) Finished 1, might do another. Blue/silver or red/black?
4. Finish the books I brought home ~slowly but surely~
5. Watch OotP. Dawn had better be free to go.
6. Start choreographing... but I still haven’t picked a song
7. Go out with us_six. only Annie ain't around (glares in her general direction)
8. KTV with tommy more people... is it still on? doesn’t seem to be on anymore. *sigh*
9. blog more. Heh. I’ve got some long-overdue pictures…
10. Play piano!!!
11. Actually do everything I've listed above...

Oh yea, MGC sem 1 results have been posted. Did I do okay? yeah, I can't deny that. Am I satisfied? not quite, I should have done so much better. (O the angst-ridden whingings of a perfectionist...) Still, I didn't do as well as I expected, and no amount of "but it's ok what!"-type statements are going to dampen the disappointment of not meeting my own expectations.

But now, methinks it's time I quit whining and get to work on point 4.

not something I do often, but well, it's interesting...

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张靓颖...

omg she has a crazy range. And that's what I'm going to work for.

*worships her*

新不了情


Loving You

this is probably going to be utterly random...

I really should be sleeping... so pardon me for any typos I might make in the course of this post. I can't say i did much that could be considered tiring today, so I guess it's walking under the blazing sun that got to me.

I dont' remember it being this hot walking around NTU, except for the one time Annie and I walked to SBS from NIE after lunch. And today, today, I just had be smart enough to get off just before Esther's place, and then find out that she and Kai were still at Jurong Point... and then walk all the way canteen 13. It's not like I haven't walked that route before in NTU, but my impression was that it was a lot cooler the last time I did that. But anyway, lunch was good... catching up with them, having food from the Korean stall. I'll probably go over to NTU again while I'm here, to pester Esther and maybe drag her to NIE for lunch? hehehe I do miss the fish there. And the chicken rice ain't bad either. ahh just thinking about it makes me hungry... yesyesyes I'll have to pop by again.

Still, I prefer the part after lunch, when we went back to Esther's room (sigh Kai your meeting took so long... *whine* how was it?) and just talked and talked about being overseas and being home, random stuff about random events and random people. And some not-so-random anime... did you get the exchange thing sorted out in the end, Esther?

ooh and I finally got started on Phase 1 of my dastardly plan... muahahaha this is going to be fun.

菊花台 is a pretty song... it's been stuck in my head most of the day, really. It just makes me want to dance. But then, lots of songs do that. I wonder what tomorrow's song will be... yesterday's was an extremely confusing amalgamation of Hallelujah, Ave Maria (Bach/Gounod) and Ave Maria (Schubert).

Hmm going to meet Rockey and Szejia tomorrow for lunch at J8... haven't seen them for so long! Really looking forward to it. Shall bring my camera along too. whee~ Oh yeah and I must remember to buy a few things while I'm out, yupyup.

Joel: what do you consider an "active" blog? And what defines an "inactive" blog? And send me the score for 菊花台!!!

right. it's indecently late... time for bed. And hey, I was right... this post is rather random.

but then, so am I.

freedom is mine...

If only for a little while.

First... a bit about Latin. Which was. Terrible. Pretty much everyone was shivering. Sure, it was pouring outside, rain coming down in sheets, windows rattling in the wind... It didn't help that the room had a really high ceiling, and very few people. But cold can be warded off with a nice thick jacket. Stress from a tough paper isn't so easily blocked, especially when the paper is right in front of you and you've got no idea what "they flee" is in latin. Or what declension "triste" is. Is it nominative, neuter, singular? I have no idea. Knowing that "ora pro nobis peccatoribus" means "pray for us sinners" doesn't help either. Nor does having Ave Maria stuck in your head, even if it is a really pretty song. and for the person who thinks I'm gonna do really well, you can think again.

Ok. Rant over.

one day, i might just write an entire post in Latin.
........
Who am I kidding?

In other news.... have I mentioned that I never thought I'd hate the heat this much? Still, it's home, and you really can't beat having nice, simple, risk-free home-cooked food. Like plain steamed fish, which i've been craving for the entire semester. And fish+cabbage soup. I like my food cooked simply, without all sorts of extra flavours.

I'm making myself hungry. *note to self: flee temptation!

Oh right NOW I remember the word for "I flee". dots... fat load of help "fugio" is now.

I've been on a Potterish bent of late... bouncing in my seat with anticipation over the last book, which I'm so going to pick up the day after I get back to Perth. whee~ And in true Hermione fashion, I've actually made a list of things to do while I'm free...

1. Make earrings.
2. Multiply that by 3. pairs. Oh gosh I just thought of using Snitches in the design...
3. Make necklace(s?)
4. Finish the books I brought home
5. Watch OotP. Dawn had better be free to go.
6. Start choreographing...
7. Go out with us_six. only Annie ain't around (glares in her general direction)
8. KTV with tommy more people... is it still on?
9. blog more. heh
10. Play piano!!!
11. Actually do everything I've listed above...

Time to sleep though... even if my fingers are itching to make stuff...