randomness II

Randomness stems from boredom. Here goes....


Saw this on Cass' and Fabian's blogs and thought I'd just fill it in for fun:

RULES:
1.) You can only answer either guilty or innocent..
2.) You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks! (So people reading this, if you want an explanation...mEssage that person)

GAME:
Danced on a table in a bar?
A: innocent

Ever told a lie?
A: guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't
have?
A: guilty

Kissed a picture?
A: guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
A: innocent

Fallen asleep at work/school?
A: guilty

Held a snake?
A: innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
A: innocent

Sang karaoke?
A: guilty

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
A: guilty

Done something you regret?
A: guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
A: innocent

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
A: innocent

Kissed in the rain?
A: innocent

Sat on a roof top?
A: innocent

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
A: innocent

Shaved your head
A: innocent

Slept naked?
A: innocent

Been in a club?
A: innocent

Shot a gun?
A: innocent

Donated Blood?
A: innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
A: innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
A: guilty

Still love someone you "shouldn't"?
A: innocent

Have a tattoo?
A: innocent

Like someone, but will never tell who?
A: guilty

Hang out with people you shouldn't?
A: innocent

Wanted to do something, didn't do it, and regret It?
A: guilty

Been too honest?
A: guilty

Cursed at someone coz he/she's not calling?
A: innocent

Ruined a surprise?
A: innocent

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
A: innocent

Erased someone in your friends list?
A: guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) man's clothes (if your a girl)?
A: guilty

Joined in a search for Mr Pogi pageant (if your a guy) Ms Beautiful pageant (if your a girl)?
A: innocent

Got totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
A: innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney fare?
A: innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
A: innocent


My brother just showed me this... love the ending!


and this...


*hugs* to Bon... no need to feel shitty! we love you!!! Make a decision you'll be happy with, ok?

yes I realise this isn't much of a post... I've been in a rather odd mood lately, having things to write about but not knowing how to put them into words. Oh well... too late to write more. Time for bed!

my source of amusement this evening

www.freerice.com

Found this through Dawn, and yeah! it's addictive. Not to mention that it's going to feed people... I like feeding people, how could I pass this one up?

gaps in my memory? hopefully not!

I'd better fill in some gaps here.... about all that's happened since the last time I blogged. But first... HOME!!!! so very happy to be home, to be sleeping on a nice firm mattress every night, to have the vegetables and soup I was craving. (no fish yet though)

So... gap number 1: Valete.
The last formal dinner of the year to send graduates and leavers off. Speeches were made, awards presented, photos taken... and there was a (very well-made) video to summarise the whole year. But the dancing was half-hearted most of the time, I guess we were all just too stressed about the exams to really enjoy ourselves.

Taken just after mass

we robbed the guys of their jackets... I wore (drowned in?) Don's.

oh no! what shall I do?

gap 2: studying (skiving?), also known as camping in various libraries. My room is definitely not a good place to study... I just keep falling asleep at random intervals. All I have to do is sit down and my head will hit the table. All that camping had better pay off.

gap 3: birthdays!!! Andrew, Persis, me, Char... Good breaks from studying! (think we'd have gone crazy if not for those little parties) For Andrew's, everyone went to his back door to surprise him... the poor guy got un-extinguishable (I know that's not a word) candles *evil laugh*. Persis got the elaborate one... first her bed scattered with roses and placed in a Jacaranda tree, then a mini-celebration with ONE slice of cheesecake and an impromptu mariachi band comprising of whoever was in the library at that time, dinner out, and finally a big celebration in H block. Char's was the day before our flight home, so we had the usual JCR party, though everyone was really quite tired and dead from packing and dinner and shopping. Her fight with Cass over their slippers was so funny... so aggressive! And Aaron got drunk (on cocktails and Tequila, I'm told) on his birthday and gave me a drunken phone call that night (talk about drunk dialing...). Yiying wouldn't reveal his birthday until the day after, the sneaky fellow.

I share my birthday with Nadia!!! We MUST go out soon ok... to make up for the studying we had to do that day. I got my first ever ice cream cake... ...thank you Bonbon! Now I know why you were asking me about my three favourite flavours: to actually make the cake!!! Ahh... a cake that I can eat. It made me impossibly full and soporific though. so very grateful and thankful. *hugs all around* and I got a pretty sparkler too! Thank you Char for the pretty comb and ring and earrings, I'll need to get earholes/ change the earrings to clip-ons. Thanks to everyone for coming... really made me feel like a little kid. A happy little kid!

Sad... Bon's going to Melbourne.................. *sulk*
I'm glad you liked your card... did Ericius sign it in the end? I'm going to miss Bonbon... silly rain, made us miss our sunrise. I would have gone for supper with you guys but I really needed to sleep. Not that I actually slept in the end. Made up for it by napping on the flight, and sleeping for 12h when I got home.

ah... home... I really don't like the heat! And I'm already starting to be busy, not that I mind. KTV on Thursday! whee~

Just to wrap up.. jacarandas! pretty purple flowers for YY!

one more

one more paper to go! 20 more hours, and I'm free. In 24h time, I'll be in Northbridge, getting ice cream.

I think I've lost the study mood though. But no, I can't sacrifice tomorrow's lab. I've got a ton of updates but they'll just have to wait. Time to be studious again!

thank goodness for my rice cooker. and slow cooker.

But I need more than rice! I feel like eating 小白菜. Steamed fish. Taugeh. Simple things like that. And tonight's dinner is... roast.

...sigh...

9 days
21 days.

some thoughts while eating instant beehoon

(no, not ABOUT the beehoon.)

We had laska for lunch in college today! which I couldn't eat... but thanks for calling me for lunch anyway, Fabian. So now I'm having beehoon with tamari sauce in my room. And a bit of yoghurt. Hopefully it will sustain me until dinner.

Oh! James has pansies and geraniums and sweet peas and lavender in his room! Haha he called me over just now, saying "I have something to show you." Turned out to be the flowers... so pretty! Thanks for showing me... I'm all happy and high now. by the way, YY, most of the flowers were purple! I have a feeling I'll be seeing more flowers next year. I really hope I get that room... pleasepleaseplease let me move in there...

And I got another nice surprise when I went for lecture just now... Clarise gave me a whole bag of bananas. Which just cracked us both up. Having one banana now... so ripe and sweet!

Seriously, with friends like these, it doesn't matter that my efforts over a certain issue haven't given any results. No change at all. But I've done what I can, it's up to you now, and if you won't take the opening now... well it will always be there. Whenever you're ready. It's really up to you now to change things. I'm at peace with what's going on. Not happy about it, but I accept it.

oh yes... did this a few days ago when I got sick of anatomy.

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow.
You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation.

At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

Music update: Just discovered that I really shouldn't listen to duets when I'm studying. I can't concentrate as well, because I'll be too fixated on the harmonies. I've been hooked on duets and on 恋东方 since Saturday.

Aha! Finished my beehoon! just as I ran out of things to write about too... good timing!

thinking too much about something might well make it come true. whether you want it to or not


better to not think so much

things to do and things to look forward to

1. Study genetics
2. Study cell metabolism
3. Study CVS anatomy
4. Thursday afternoon: finish FCP
5. KTV on Saturday! and
6. Choir dinner on Sunday!

It's getting hot... I feel the need for shorts and skirts. And I have neither. Nor do I have the time/means to shop. Too bad then, just burn...

Yes Dawn, I'm going home!! For about 3 months. miss me?


20 days.

32 days.

Think I'll nap before dinner.

two weeks

Two busy weeks, to be precise... even the weekends have been crammed full of activity and studying.

Makes me wonder why I went for the Quad Party... after the Mid-Autumn celebration/bbq, no less. For which I ended up dancing in a long green skirt and pink windbreaker, because Kul needed a ChangEr for Anthony's HouYi. Oh and the suns died pretty amusing deaths, I must say. No mooncakes for me though... *sighs* and then the Friday night mood took over, sending me over to Miri's room to figure out what to wear to the quad party in place of clothes.

And then the study mood pushed me back to making FCP notes at about 10pm. Thankfully that mood lasted over the weekend and right up to lunch time on Wednesday, or I wouldn't have studied as much as I did, what with choir rehearsals and practicing for the competition. The midsem wasn't as bad as I thought it would be... pretty sure I won't fail it. *crosses fingers*

I'm just glad that Talent Night was after FCP. I doubt I could have had that much fun otherwise. Congrats to Chris Lee, you're amazing man!

珊瑚海 with Chin Loon

新不了情

Susanty!!!

Thanks to everyone who came!

Then Thursday night comes by and guess what? There's choir again! (what's new...?) And Spring Feast! Where I had pulut hitam... sweet corn... teh tarik... honeydew sago... chicken satay... and got to watch Chris perform again! wonder where that random waterbottle came from though. Did anyone note its trajectory before it hit the stage and burst?

As for Friday, well... I meant to finish up FCP in the afternoon, but went shoe shopping (alone... *sniffles*) instead. How I managed to spend TWO WHOLE HOURS on a single pair of simple, not-too-formal, low-heeled black shoes, I'll never know. In YY's words... black formal shoes... you'd think it would be easy. but noooo...........

And then Saturday was gone too, in a rush of preparing for the Ball, singing, dressing up, taking College photos and dressing up again, before finally scrambling onto the bus to Hilton. It was an enjoyable night, to say the least...

3 pretty girls and their bodyguards

Someone's hungry... and the bus isn't even here yet!

James' creation
Pretty lights over the dance floor

Me, Gen, Fabian, Joy, Jono, Miriam, Chin Loon

Ericius and Melvin...

Highlights of the night:1. dessert! I got to eat chocolate cake!!! SAFE chocolate cake, with chocolate, chocolate sauce and chocolate ice cream. sheer bliss. I will forever be thankful to the chef for creating a menu suited to pickypickyme.

2. Wilson got so drunk he fell asleep halfway through dinner and had to take a taxi back to college...
3. Funny... I thought I had more pictures of the dance floor... oh well, doesn't matter. Pretty much everyone was dancing, and I must say, there's quite a number of good dancers. Yes Jono, I look forward to dancing with you again too! I didn't know most of the songs, but who cares... all so dance-inducing... Oh and if my hair looks red, it's because Miri and I coloured it that day. And washed it off again that night.
4. Turns out Ericius was drunk enough to get us to sing Locus Iste, This Joy, Bogor (can't spell the full title) and Ave Verum Corpus on the bus back to college (and not really remember it the next day). The most interesting comment of the night? "These Asians... how can they sing so well when they're drunk?" Why thank you, we got the right starting notes and stayed on pitch. (But I don't drink.)

The next three days were taken up by mugging, choir, more mugging, more choir, and falling sick. gah. And if that wasn't enough... there was still more mugging and more choir! Just look at the to-do list in the last post and you'll know what I mean.

As with every other performance... I'm relieved that the concert is over (no more hectic practices on top of school work... almost exam time...), but there's still that sense of loss. Well... I think "The Great Southland" was well done... as were "Receive the Power" and "Locus Iste". Wonder what everyone thinks of "O Bone Jesu"? I haven't heard anything about it... On the other hand... "Ecce Fidelis Servus" lacked emotion, and "Festival Sanctus" lacked energy. Again, thanks to everyone who came!

singing made me hungry...

To end off (and to show that I'm really not just playing, I'm studying too!)... here's another to-do list.
1. Finish NS Anatomy take-home quiz by 4pm Sunday
2. Finish NS Physiology lab report by 4pm Sunday
3. Finalise FCP portfolio by 11pm Sunday
4. Finish MGC lab reports by Monday 3pm
5. Finish preparing for NS Anatomy lab by Monday 6pm
6. Genetics. Quiz on Thursday (ick).
7. CVS anatomy. This week.
8. Cell metabolism. This week
9. Next FCP PBL by Saturday noon... because...
10. KTV on Saturday! and
11. Choir dinner on Sunday!


Exam countdown: 23 days to first paper (oh dammit)

35 days before I'm home...

My bed calls.

things to do this week

1. prepare for NS anatomy lab by midnight
2. prepare for NS physiology lab by midnight
3. prepare for MGC lab (last lab! YAY!!!) by midnight
4. finalise FCP clinical skills workbook by thursday afternoon
5. finalise FCP portfolio by sunday afternoon
6. choir practice 7-9++ pm tonight
7. choir concert 7-10++ pm tomorrow
8. study!!!
9. random things...

Exam countdown: 28 days to first paper

39 days before I see home~

just a quick one before I go for class

I think I've got most of the Ball pictures... I just don't feel like blogging about it yet. I know that once I do, I'll take ages to finish it, and there's no way I'll finish before I have to leave for lecture. So... another time.

The concert is tomorrow night and I have a sore throat. oh joy.

You know what? I will pray, and pray hard.

bad idea, good result

Bad idea: fall asleep (or come close to it) during Brenton Knott's genetics lectures... need to take notes of pretty much everything he says, and half-asleep handwriting is simply illegible.

Good result: wake up refreshed for anatomy lab!!!

Lara Fabian – Broken Vow

Gosh... the power... the intensity... and the voice. I really prefer this original version to Josh Groban's (not that he isn't stunning too). I'll get there one day.

truth

I've said time and again, it's what I wanted, and I have no regrets. So why do I still feel so messed up? Why do I still react so strongly to you? And the truth came out from the long talk with Bon last night.

I remember telling you this before:
I'll miss you if you go.

Mi mancherai, se te ne vai

Last night I took a good look inside myself, and I know it to be true.

Mi guardo e trovo un vuoto dentro me
Quando mi guardo intorno E sento che mi manchi

I've missed you from the moment you got on that plane. Perhaps you didn't know it, but you had an extra item in your luggage that day... because some of my happiness went with you.

E l'allegria, amica mia, va via con te

Last night I admitted to myself, I miss you, I miss what we had.

Mi manchi

It hits me at random times: when I see a sunset that you'd love to take a picture of, when I see happy loving couples, when I pick up a pink top (one of them, though I have many). When it turns cold and I know you'd love it. Certain songs, even lights... When I come across something extremely nerdy, when I'm stressed and tell myself to let go and relax a while.

Quando il sole da la mano all'orizzonte...

Let go? You're making it awfully hard for me to do that.

Nei tuoi sguardi
E in quell sorriso un pò incosciente
Nelle scuse di quei tuoi probabilmente
Sei quell nodo in gola che non scende giù
E tu e tu

Sometimes I wish I could just call you again, that we could have those talks that go on until 3am. Little things like that... and I guess... I'm just living in the shadow of what was.

Come l'ombra di qualcosa ancora mia.

I can pretend to be okay, but I miss you.

Posso far finta di star bene ma mi manchi

Soon I won't have to pretend. One day, I'll be okay. Mi manchi, I miss what we had, but I won't go back. Because we haven't had any of that for a long time, we didn't just lose it. I'm not turning back, I'm not coming back. We've all got to move on somehow.

I could find someone else, but that would be wrong, that would be cheating. Cheating myself, cheating him, cheating you.

Mi manchi e potrei
Cercarmi un'altra donna ma m'ingannerei

I'm not going to look back. It's taken me long enough to come to this decision, and I know it's what I want, that I'll have no regrets.

I don't hate you. I still care, I'll still be your friend. But nothing more

impulsive again

Running out to Matilda Bay in the cold, just to see fireworks. It's insane and impulsive... and induces an absolute high~

so pretty!!!! I'm going again tomorrow

I flipped through a book and thought it was good, all of it. Then I started reading it, and I saw that the writing wasn't always good, that the content wasn't always that gripping, that the summary on the back cover only shows off and emphasises the selling points. I'm glad I got prodded into reading it closely, and for the help I got in reading is, cos literature really isn't my strong point. And I'm really glad I didn't buy the book in the end

I woke up confident this morning. Confident that I'm free, or will be, sometime soon. Confident that I'm stubborn enough to get what I want. That I won't succumb to the temptation and change my mind.

week 38...

...hasn't been great so far. And as pessimistic as it sounds, it doesn't seem to be getting any better (guess what? it's already Friday!)... lots left to do, and not enough time...

Why bad? Hm.... let's just say... a combination of tests and certain people.

At least the midsem is over. It wasn't great by any means, but it's over, and that's a relief. Today's quiz is a sure-fail, because 1. I didn't feel like studying after the midsem, and 2. I skipped a lecture.

I hear you gasp. Choops skipped a lecture? Choops not study? That's a first. But honestly, would YOU study for a 0.5% quiz after slogging for more than a week on a midsem? I think my time was far better spent out having ice cream and bubble tea, and admiring the view from Kings Park at night. Just like how it was better to go for choir to get rid of all the stress before studying properly, than stare at the notes for two hours and not absorb a single bit of it.

And I really wish I had the guts to say some things to people, in their face. But if I did it, it would just seem completely aggressive and uncalled for to onlookers. So I'll just say it here:

1. Now you know it's you. (I don't think you're THAT clueless)
2. Don't play with me. Don't amuse yourself at my expense. I can take jokes, but there's gotta be a limit, people.
3. Telling me isn't good enough. You have to prove yourself. Show me.
4. And if you were sincere, I wouldn't have to tell you that.

For all that, I don't hate you, nor am I angry. I'm annoyed and confused and slightly at a loss, but I still consider you my friends. Because I've always been able to see your good sides, and I've always known that no one is perfect.

For someone I thought was a good friend: did I do something wrong? Because you're being strangely distant. I've seen that sort of distance before from you, but this time, I'm on the receiving end and I don't know why. If it's something I did, I'll gladly make amends because this distance just isn't right. But I can't do it right if I don't know what's gone wrong.

A visit to Imladris

Araluen isn't Imladris, but it's definitely pretty enough, and far enough from the city to be surreal. Plus it's best visited in September...
...when all the flowers have finally blossomed... a sea of tulips when we visited on Tuesday...
So! First to find a bbq pit... good thing we got there early, or we might not have been able to get a pit.The chefs...
...at the feast of Elrond. Find Elrond.The main course...
...guests at the feast... What made it better was being serenaded by a tenor. Apparently, someone was promoting his cd, and was performing somewhere in Araluen. His rendition of "You Raise Me Up" was so similar to Josh Groban... it had me fooled. And the same for "Music of the Night"... Didn't get to watch him though, because the Fellowship set off on the quest to take as many photos as possible right after lunch, and he was gone by the time we got back.The Fellowship!Our fearless leader tries to figure out our route. "Hmm... I think it's.... THAT way!""Gandalf! Is it left or right?" We went left, in the end... How very fitting that we ended up in an area under construction after that. Not really Mordor, but definitely not pretty.
"Get off the road!!!!!" – the road that led to the only barren area in the park. Maybe they're making a carpark? Who knows... all we saw were piles of soil and rock, and tree trunks lined up on the ground.Don tries to conquer the mountain of rubble:
"Don! It's not stable!"
"...stable..." (makes rock wobble)
But that was just one corner of Araluen... it soon became pretty again!all MINE!!!
and hmm....? What's Fabian looking at?
in the Rose Garden
This might have been the stream we heard on our way into the park, who knows?
And this is the stream I got my feet wet in on our way back...
Spotted by Anthony!
Back in the main area of the park, at the end of the quest, when we went slightly crazy and entirely too eager to use the camera.*gasp* "The lamppost from Narnia!!!" – the last bit of insanity before it started raining and we had to go home...
Apparently, it costs AUD$500 for a lifetime membership, with unlimited free entry to the park. Anyone wants to sponsor me?

Kai knows I'm impulsive

...and by the end of this post she'll be glad I was impulsive on Tuesday afternoon.

So there I was, quite exhausted after finishing up some anatomy. And I looked out the window and saw a rainbow shimmering, its beauty ephemeral. Then I was out the door and on the field just in front of my block, camera in hand, trying to get a good shot of the camera.
But the trees were in my way... so off I went to Matilda Bay to get a better angle. Hopefully. Unfortunately the traffic was against me... so I had to wait quite a while to actually cross the road... which also meant that the rainbow was disappearing while I waited.

From this:
To this:
And then I decided to take a few more shots...