I cannot crack now, I must not. I owe us both an answer, though it might be an answer I fear knowing. I've also committed myself to helping them, and I'm absolutely willing, because they're willing to help themselves. And honestly, its only the second week of the semester. It's absolutely pathetic to crack now. If I can't handle the work now, how am I going to handle worse in the future?

I need to get a grip. I will not crack